wed?

have not been studying..
thinking alot..
i think i really want a gf, hhaha, despo yiki..
but, no matter how desperate, i have to wait..
In His time, there is nothing happening too early or too late..
my dad had been fainting frequently lately, today, he get dizzy again, i need to pick him up from bus interchange.
it had been happening for 3 times in the past week.. really too frequent..
at least he is not hospitalised like last yr..
have been thinking, wat'l happen if he is too sick?
cannot work anymore?
why i cant study?
why 'm I always hiding from problems?
why i keep sinning?
why i try to hide from God, or rather put Him aside despite He is so important to me?
why, why, why?
i may not have all the answers to all this questions...
but i know my God still love me, always love me. The only Love that will never change.
i'm sorry my God, i'l really try to change.
i'l learn how to love U, how to love myself, how to love people, with my heart.
i do not know how to love, i'm self-centred.
when i'm weak, God, pls forgive me, pls softly pick me up with your hands.
when i'm scared, feel like running away, pls me with me, give me courage, as u walk with me..
thank you my God..