today work is ok, a little slow.. haha.. but but, God gave me an interesting realization!
i was drawing my 羊on the notice board and si en found out its my work.
i was jokingly saying that i'm the 羊.
and to my surprise, she asked, "so who is your shepherd?"
i was like a little stun, and then i replied, " God is my shepherd la, He is the Shepherd and i'm the 羊."
she did not say much, but it make me realise its possible, that what i learnt last time is possible and shd be done. 宣教，是一种生命态度。若我真的是为神而活，而工作，那么，这六个月的internship就是我的短宣！或许我现在所做的东西很多又很专，未必用到以前所学的。但是，我学到如何与人（同事，老板s）相处，如何问问题。面对问题时，祷告，提醒自己是为主而做工，以我的生命和工作来荣耀神。这已经是神的恩典！有internship，不是理所当然。能够欣赏神所赐的，也是恩典！感谢主！求主继续赐我足够的能力，爱心，敏感的眼，的心，去安慰，去真正的在我的internship里，做主的盐和光！
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以这孩子为我们的期望
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
新的开始，就在这里！
wat is your drive?
purpose driven? or God driven? having purpose to drive is good, but if the drive is from personal want, or things that you seem as important, but its not what God want you to do, is it good? ministry, singing of praise, serving, worship, are we driven by the weekly happening, or its there a purpose behind them, or most importantly, when we do all of the above, are we God driven?
tmr is the day! so exciting! work, FOC. i'm really looking forward!
after restraining for one month plus, i ordered ice coffee as i was very tired today. once again, the result of sin is very scary.. if not, there is no need for me to drink coffee.. once again, it proved that caffine is useless to me.. was as tired after drinking, and my stomach was quite "high" after drinking.. 我真的是犯贱哦。。
purpose driven? or God driven? having purpose to drive is good, but if the drive is from personal want, or things that you seem as important, but its not what God want you to do, is it good? ministry, singing of praise, serving, worship, are we driven by the weekly happening, or its there a purpose behind them, or most importantly, when we do all of the above, are we God driven?
tmr is the day! so exciting! work, FOC. i'm really looking forward!
after restraining for one month plus, i ordered ice coffee as i was very tired today. once again, the result of sin is very scary.. if not, there is no need for me to drink coffee.. once again, it proved that caffine is useless to me.. was as tired after drinking, and my stomach was quite "high" after drinking.. 我真的是犯贱哦。。
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
busy busy blessed day!
10th day
Today is one of the most exciting day! old sample, old method to do. as i calculate, and everything set. my buffer is missing!! my senior's buffrer went missing and we tried real hard and even the director came to help find. certified missing. as a result, i was told to make on my own. pretty exciting as this is the first time i make buffer. i follow the instruction and make from scratch, from finding the individual reagent, weighing, dissolving, dilutiing, mixing, diluting. and in the interval of some steps, i went to learn to use lcms, how to load, how to analyse, and toffy too! very exciting and rush day. and finally adding blood and the process. and toffy in the interval again. interesting. and the lunch was great too! i did not know chinatown/outram got such a interesting place to have western food, i like the environment and my collegues' company!
i thank God for the job. i thank God for the passion. i thank God for the problems. i thank God for the experience gained. i thank God for His grace and mercy on me. let me not just enjoy and immerse myself in my work, help me Fathr to learn your way and think of u too, help me.
Today is one of the most exciting day! old sample, old method to do. as i calculate, and everything set. my buffer is missing!! my senior's buffrer went missing and we tried real hard and even the director came to help find. certified missing. as a result, i was told to make on my own. pretty exciting as this is the first time i make buffer. i follow the instruction and make from scratch, from finding the individual reagent, weighing, dissolving, dilutiing, mixing, diluting. and in the interval of some steps, i went to learn to use lcms, how to load, how to analyse, and toffy too! very exciting and rush day. and finally adding blood and the process. and toffy in the interval again. interesting. and the lunch was great too! i did not know chinatown/outram got such a interesting place to have western food, i like the environment and my collegues' company!
i thank God for the job. i thank God for the passion. i thank God for the problems. i thank God for the experience gained. i thank God for His grace and mercy on me. let me not just enjoy and immerse myself in my work, help me Fathr to learn your way and think of u too, help me.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Thank God for Your Provision! =))
9th day
i think my arms and fingers are getting stronger from all the sample preparationa nd the testings. whaha~
i completed my 11 samples! i did them in the fastest and most accurate fashion =)
and.. the previous 2 test i got the result le!! =)) hurhur~~ Thank God!!
now the technique just need some modification and it will be good!
today i was with toffy and handled it and learnt quite a bit. i think i'm going to be better as i gain more experience! and i was learnt able toffy's friend too! lcms~ haha.
and. i unleash my lame jokes to my collegues and they responded in a real supportive manner!! whaha~~~
Leave of absence
Thank God so much! both HSA and NUS replied and the response seems great! there is just some confusion and i really hope to settle it and really let my dream of 6 months in HSA come true!! thank God so much!
"圣经使你远离罪恶，罪恶使你远离圣经。"
how true. must try and try. no matter how tired i am.
i think my arms and fingers are getting stronger from all the sample preparationa nd the testings. whaha~
i completed my 11 samples! i did them in the fastest and most accurate fashion =)
and.. the previous 2 test i got the result le!! =)) hurhur~~ Thank God!!
now the technique just need some modification and it will be good!
today i was with toffy and handled it and learnt quite a bit. i think i'm going to be better as i gain more experience! and i was learnt able toffy's friend too! lcms~ haha.
and. i unleash my lame jokes to my collegues and they responded in a real supportive manner!! whaha~~~
Leave of absence
Thank God so much! both HSA and NUS replied and the response seems great! there is just some confusion and i really hope to settle it and really let my dream of 6 months in HSA come true!! thank God so much!
"圣经使你远离罪恶，罪恶使你远离圣经。"
how true. must try and try. no matter how tired i am.
Monday, July 12, 2010
i give thanks to the Lord! =)
intern day 8
very good day, got new project, this time 11 drugs!! woo hoo~~ haha, so excited~ dilution is such a pain.. i almost pulled hair.. haha..something that seems so simple turn out to be something quite tough.. haha.. but i thank God for my collegues who helped me along~~ was excited, serious, and writing , calculating, searching for stock, and doing this and that, and last sun's choir song, St Francis Prayer, not the one we often hear of, ringing in my ears. i hope to be able to live out what was sang=) i really like what i'm doing now, everyday very exciting, looking forward. i even watch agilent machines video and researched on lcms-dad on sat.. whaha.. tmr going to do on urine le, and handle my dearest toffy. hehe~~ happy~ and the lab safety course today is real interesting!! haha~~ this job, is really God-given., i really hope to conrinue on~~
very good day, got new project, this time 11 drugs!! woo hoo~~ haha, so excited~ dilution is such a pain.. i almost pulled hair.. haha..something that seems so simple turn out to be something quite tough.. haha.. but i thank God for my collegues who helped me along~~ was excited, serious, and writing , calculating, searching for stock, and doing this and that, and last sun's choir song, St Francis Prayer, not the one we often hear of, ringing in my ears. i hope to be able to live out what was sang=) i really like what i'm doing now, everyday very exciting, looking forward. i even watch agilent machines video and researched on lcms-dad on sat.. whaha.. tmr going to do on urine le, and handle my dearest toffy. hehe~~ happy~ and the lab safety course today is real interesting!! haha~~ this job, is really God-given., i really hope to conrinue on~~
Saturday, July 10, 2010
my new friend is called tof-fy
Tof-fy
Tof-fy, is a name i give to the lc-ms-Tof machine( tof a.k.a. time of flight)
pretty cool looking instrument =) sounds like the sweet, toffee.. hurhur~
just realised ytd if the organ cases came too late, some of the collegues may need to stay over time. i was telling myself, despite this, if my work is fast enough, i may be part of God's plan in saving that person's life. work here is quite fierce sometimes, u have to see autopsy cases, do many testings, but if we can help the people in need, i think indeed its a meaningful and interesting job. hope that God will sustain my passion, be His salt and light in office and lab, be part of His plan in helping people and not be numb after seeing so many sad cases, not to be angry due to my own selfishness. be compassionate, show concern and love to the people around me.
6章
23 眼睛就是身上的灯。你的眼睛若了亮，全身就光明。
24 你的眼睛若昏花，全身就黑暗。你里头的光若黑暗了，那黑暗是何等大呢。
我在给自己看什么呢？看那些不该看的，眼睛就会昏花，那么我全身不就黑暗了吗？要是我里头的光若黑暗了，在我里面的黑暗是何等的大呢。昨天，我没有灵修，犯罪了。今天，感谢主，保守着我的心，不叫我遇见试探，救我脱离凶恶，让我思想，让我听。求主帮助我不要因此而得意。每一次我感到灵性激昂时，我就会得意，也因为这样，之后往往会跌倒。导致灵命像过山车一般，一到了高峰，就会摔下来。求主保守我的心，让我时常警惕，警醒，不要得意或懒散，单单注目于你，向着标杆，直奔。
6章里头。全部是宝。重点不单单在主祷文，整章的重点是要帮助读者，把焦点放在神，不在自己。现在在读的一本书，《all you want to ask about prayer, but is afraid to ask》里所写的，也引用这章。
Tof-fy, is a name i give to the lc-ms-Tof machine( tof a.k.a. time of flight)
pretty cool looking instrument =) sounds like the sweet, toffee.. hurhur~
just realised ytd if the organ cases came too late, some of the collegues may need to stay over time. i was telling myself, despite this, if my work is fast enough, i may be part of God's plan in saving that person's life. work here is quite fierce sometimes, u have to see autopsy cases, do many testings, but if we can help the people in need, i think indeed its a meaningful and interesting job. hope that God will sustain my passion, be His salt and light in office and lab, be part of His plan in helping people and not be numb after seeing so many sad cases, not to be angry due to my own selfishness. be compassionate, show concern and love to the people around me.
6章
23 眼睛就是身上的灯。你的眼睛若了亮，全身就光明。
24 你的眼睛若昏花，全身就黑暗。你里头的光若黑暗了，那黑暗是何等大呢。
我在给自己看什么呢？看那些不该看的，眼睛就会昏花，那么我全身不就黑暗了吗？要是我里头的光若黑暗了，在我里面的黑暗是何等的大呢。昨天，我没有灵修，犯罪了。今天，感谢主，保守着我的心，不叫我遇见试探，救我脱离凶恶，让我思想，让我听。求主帮助我不要因此而得意。每一次我感到灵性激昂时，我就会得意，也因为这样，之后往往会跌倒。导致灵命像过山车一般，一到了高峰，就会摔下来。求主保守我的心，让我时常警惕，警醒，不要得意或懒散，单单注目于你，向着标杆，直奔。
6章里头。全部是宝。重点不单单在主祷文，整章的重点是要帮助读者，把焦点放在神，不在自己。现在在读的一本书，《all you want to ask about prayer, but is afraid to ask》里所写的，也引用这章。
Friday, July 9, 2010
i just cant stop worrying.
intern day 6
imagine u have to read and search journals for a whole day and u have to understand them, and think of the best way to combine, modify and exercise it out. that is wat happened. i had to research for 3 drugs, and figure out the way to modify and see them show a distincitive pattern on the machines. very tiring and mind exhausting as i have nv read so much journal in one day before, have to understand and try to map them into the current system.
intern day 7
finally, i had started on my personal project after all the literature research.
the weighing balance is 0.00000g and i need to measure 0.01000g accurately, as accurate as 0.0100Xg. tedious tedious, but they are done. dissolve in methanol, check UV and we are ready. samples are queueing on lcms and lcms-tof, very excited to see what are the results that i'm going to see on monday!!
watched the chopping of autopsy liver today, hmm..
saw auntie wendy's eye in bad condition, i wanted to tell her i want to pray for her, but i did not.. i prayed on my own, silently for her, and thank God, after a about 1 hour, she is back to normal! thank God for saying yes to my prayer. when people get old, they really have lots of physical problems. i was telling guo hao, when we are young, must really take good care of our body, like sleeping early and eating normally, if not, our body will have a lot problems that could have been avoided. i was asking myself, if God gave us 24hours, and after work, time are so precious, how shd i use them? over spenting on fb, youtube are really a waste of time, not worthy in spending.there are so much more meaningful stuff to do.
leave of absence
as i close my computer, i laughed at myself. i was so worried that i almost cant sleep. then i recall the only 3 chapters that i'm supposed to read for the pass month.
马太福音6章：33-34 “你们要先求他的国和他的义。这些东西都要加给你们了。所以不要为明天忧虑。因为明天自有明天的忧虑。一天的难处一天当就够了。"
那么，我还忧虑什么呢？我已经尽我的能力去做，而神的确掌管。我那晚求神，能够做intern到12月，但我知道神为我预备了最美好的计划，不管是，或不是做intern到12月。所以，我求神教导我顺服，不管他的答案是否和我心中的一样。过后，就带着笑容睡着了。但起来后，又开始担心。我祷告。我想，我没有平安，是因为我不愿完全放手给神。6章教的，就是把焦点放在神，不是把焦点放在自己的需要，因为神预备，神看顾。我一切的需要，神在我未祷告之前都已经知道。只要把焦点放对就好了。若真的只能做一个月，固然可惜，因为我真的学了很多，非常享受我的工作，就算下班后，累到差一点在地铁站着时差点睡着，我还是很期待上班。但是，若做半年不是神要给我的，硬硬做，也是徒然的。最重要，就是与神的心意并行嘛。学习，有一颗愿意放手，愿意顺服的心。
imagine u have to read and search journals for a whole day and u have to understand them, and think of the best way to combine, modify and exercise it out. that is wat happened. i had to research for 3 drugs, and figure out the way to modify and see them show a distincitive pattern on the machines. very tiring and mind exhausting as i have nv read so much journal in one day before, have to understand and try to map them into the current system.
intern day 7
finally, i had started on my personal project after all the literature research.
the weighing balance is 0.00000g and i need to measure 0.01000g accurately, as accurate as 0.0100Xg. tedious tedious, but they are done. dissolve in methanol, check UV and we are ready. samples are queueing on lcms and lcms-tof, very excited to see what are the results that i'm going to see on monday!!
watched the chopping of autopsy liver today, hmm..
saw auntie wendy's eye in bad condition, i wanted to tell her i want to pray for her, but i did not.. i prayed on my own, silently for her, and thank God, after a about 1 hour, she is back to normal! thank God for saying yes to my prayer. when people get old, they really have lots of physical problems. i was telling guo hao, when we are young, must really take good care of our body, like sleeping early and eating normally, if not, our body will have a lot problems that could have been avoided. i was asking myself, if God gave us 24hours, and after work, time are so precious, how shd i use them? over spenting on fb, youtube are really a waste of time, not worthy in spending.there are so much more meaningful stuff to do.
leave of absence
as i close my computer, i laughed at myself. i was so worried that i almost cant sleep. then i recall the only 3 chapters that i'm supposed to read for the pass month.
马太福音6章：33-34 “你们要先求他的国和他的义。这些东西都要加给你们了。所以不要为明天忧虑。因为明天自有明天的忧虑。一天的难处一天当就够了。"
那么，我还忧虑什么呢？我已经尽我的能力去做，而神的确掌管。我那晚求神，能够做intern到12月，但我知道神为我预备了最美好的计划，不管是，或不是做intern到12月。所以，我求神教导我顺服，不管他的答案是否和我心中的一样。过后，就带着笑容睡着了。但起来后，又开始担心。我祷告。我想，我没有平安，是因为我不愿完全放手给神。6章教的，就是把焦点放在神，不是把焦点放在自己的需要，因为神预备，神看顾。我一切的需要，神在我未祷告之前都已经知道。只要把焦点放对就好了。若真的只能做一个月，固然可惜，因为我真的学了很多，非常享受我的工作，就算下班后，累到差一点在地铁站着时差点睡着，我还是很期待上班。但是，若做半年不是神要给我的，硬硬做，也是徒然的。最重要，就是与神的心意并行嘛。学习，有一颗愿意放手，愿意顺服的心。
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Leave of Absence
application of Leave of Absence 快要让我疯掉了。写了，send 了，改了，再send了。现在才做完。
还不能apply，时间快要不够了，真的让我提心吊胆。我是真的很想留下，做6个月的实习。
神啊，求你给我吧。
还不能apply，时间快要不够了，真的让我提心吊胆。我是真的很想留下，做6个月的实习。
神啊，求你给我吧。
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
4th day!
i had realised i'm a workaholic!
i dont like to read or idle. i'l feel tired and sleepy
but if u let me do lab, key in data, draw molecules, calculate Mr, i'm more than awake and excited!!
today did no lab, did not wear lab coat, therefore felt quite cold.. haha.. nv had the want to wear lab coat as much as today.. whaha~
today i just know that we can do testing on the liuqid in the eye.. hmm.. interesting......?
was quite happy today, cos did some work=)
read some cases, was quite sad while reading some autopsy cases..
hai..
Indeed, people need the Lord.
i dont like to read or idle. i'l feel tired and sleepy
but if u let me do lab, key in data, draw molecules, calculate Mr, i'm more than awake and excited!!
today did no lab, did not wear lab coat, therefore felt quite cold.. haha.. nv had the want to wear lab coat as much as today.. whaha~
today i just know that we can do testing on the liuqid in the eye.. hmm.. interesting......?
was quite happy today, cos did some work=)
read some cases, was quite sad while reading some autopsy cases..
hai..
Indeed, people need the Lord.
Monday, July 5, 2010
每一次，跌倒，站起来更刚强
intern day 3~
first time pipette blood in test tube.
did my first project, v excited to see the LC result tmr!
sick, feeling hot and weak while doing lab.. but, ok la~
first time pipette blood in test tube.
did my first project, v excited to see the LC result tmr!
sick, feeling hot and weak while doing lab.. but, ok la~
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Saturday, July 3, 2010
我是一点也不坚强
我很想呐喊，很想狂奔。我是真的很不爽很不
感谢神，让我看到，我生气，因为我的所作所为是在求回报的。我想要人的注意，我的服事对象不是神，是我自己。服侍，应该是喜乐的，当然，不一定会一帆风顺，但若读对象是对的，对象是神的话，我想应该是喜乐的。
一天，好短，若再浪费，就真的很不应该，不要妥协于自己的欲望，妥协于自己的逃避。
intern第二天~~
very happy~ did UV again, and start reading my journal..
i thought only when i write lab report then i need to read.. to understand something i had little knwledge of is really quite challenging, with people around you are working and walking around made it so stressfull hahah.. but, i'm thankful =)
the only sad thing is my trembling left hand is back. is quite a nuisance during the UV as my left hand holds the cuvet as i wash or transfer solution into it..
trembling hand, stomach, skin. exciting.
感谢神，让我看到，我生气，因为我的所作所为是在求回报的。我想要人的注意，我的服事对象不是神，是我自己。服侍，应该是喜乐的，当然，不一定会一帆风顺，但若读对象是对的，对象是神的话，我想应该是喜乐的。
一天，好短，若再浪费，就真的很不应该，不要妥协于自己的欲望，妥协于自己的逃避。
intern第二天~~
very happy~ did UV again, and start reading my journal..
i thought only when i write lab report then i need to read.. to understand something i had little knwledge of is really quite challenging, with people around you are working and walking around made it so stressfull hahah.. but, i'm thankful =)
the only sad thing is my trembling left hand is back. is quite a nuisance during the UV as my left hand holds the cuvet as i wash or transfer solution into it..
trembling hand, stomach, skin. exciting.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
1st day!
work is good~~
1st day got briefing and observations.
but my hands were itching to do things as i got amazed and amazed by the techniques and experience as my collegues showed and guided me.
i was a little info overload and am really glad that in the 2nd half of the day, i get to do stuff~
i did UV for quite a few chemicals =)
looking forward to tmr's work, really thank God for this experience!
the only downside is, my stomach had not been quite co-operative the whole day.. maybe i really shd go for specialist one day.. hmmm.. haha, i am always afraid to see the specialist as i'm afraid of getting diagnosed stomach tumour as my aunt who had told me my sympthoms are similar to her. hee, but well, some day i had to face the truth, no matter its have or not. =)
In God's hand. i hope that i can be glued up someday, my broken body and my broken soul.=)
1st day got briefing and observations.
but my hands were itching to do things as i got amazed and amazed by the techniques and experience as my collegues showed and guided me.
i was a little info overload and am really glad that in the 2nd half of the day, i get to do stuff~
i did UV for quite a few chemicals =)
looking forward to tmr's work, really thank God for this experience!
the only downside is, my stomach had not been quite co-operative the whole day.. maybe i really shd go for specialist one day.. hmmm.. haha, i am always afraid to see the specialist as i'm afraid of getting diagnosed stomach tumour as my aunt who had told me my sympthoms are similar to her. hee, but well, some day i had to face the truth, no matter its have or not. =)
In God's hand. i hope that i can be glued up someday, my broken body and my broken soul.=)
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