how great is our God??

slept at 5am, wake up at 6.. dozed off, wake up at 7, dozed off, wake up at 730!! die. went to bath.. then rush out of home, din gel hair.. went down, thank God there is a cab!! wave it, got in, and the uncle drive fast!! i reach church at 810.. quickly wear the robe, then rush out to practice.. but since i lost my scores the other time so i have to rush to print after the practice.. rush down, had a prayer before going in to the sanctuary. then as i was putting the score in the the file, i found my notes.. and i was very amused.. hahaha.. cos i had been looking for it, over the 2 weeks, and i suddenly appeared, after i print a new one.. was in a really good mood when the service started. hee.. then the singspiration was really good too, for i really feel like i was praising God, not just singing the song. it had been long since this really happen. for either i was distracted, or i was too focus on my singing techniques, or cos the song was too nice.. i was in a very ji an mood, and it lasted for quite a while.. i cant really change my mood so when i was singing with the choir, i cant really sing out the song's intended mood as the song was supposed to be slightly happy, lighthearted..i was trying to smile but my mood just cant change that fast.. but i hope god understands.

the sermon is good too!

to be used by God, is grace

to be used by God for a life time, even more is grace

continue in part 2.. tired

stomach problem..

stomach flu? dunno leh.. just that my stomach is feeling real bad.. diahorrea a few times since last sat.. today oso feel bad... but.. sit on the toilet bowl very long oso nothing happen.. haha..(ku xiao..)

this is quite cool, two songs of same song name..

人算甚麼  曲詞: 李芷晴

驟望宇宙萬有 無言地頌讚做物能力

望著那天邊浮雲 都浮沉

這世界掌管於您手之中

月亮缺席的星空 更顯出那星際閃爍生輝

這漆黑的美麗

全屬您創造而來的一切 噢哈利路亞

人到底算是 算是甚麼

神您竟這樣 這樣顧念我

凝望星光 鋪滿您陳設的天際

才驟覺自己如海沙般渺小

神您竟這樣 這樣顧念我

人到底算是 算是甚麼

無從說道 心裡盡是驚歎安慰

神您賜下尊貴冠冕

榮耀裡可跟您相見

才驟覺自己如比天使重要

寂寞暗淡的一生

神同在並給我添上色彩

我不得不讚頌

神獨您永是全能的主宰 噢哈利路亞

nice song, good reflection

主手創出風雷星宿

早春夏雨深秋

神話語發出榮耀極豐厚

萬有亦出於祢口主

手創出星河宇宙

一切美不勝收

人在祢創造中恩深厚

是祢靈賜下自由

人算甚麼 人算甚麼

主祢竟顧念他

人算甚麼 人算甚麼

主祢竟顧念我

（副歌）今夜星光斑爛多璀璨

銀河上有月影一彎彎

笑問天父何竟心仍未冷

重擔為我肩擔

今夜星光斑爛多璀璨

銀河上有月影一彎彎

笑問我算甚麼竟蒙大愛

深恩世代驚嘆

me and my little adventure..

1 july
after the wonderful cycling experience with s208, had not been cycling... but due to the need to go for a hair cut, i ride my bike out again!! waited quite longfor my turn, but was pretty ok..
after the hair cutt, i start my little adventure.. try a new route to go tamp.. hee..upper changi road--> simei road--> blk 201--> tamp central --->bedok reservoir--> home.. haha.. was pretty good.. slightly tired for i had not been excercising.. had procrastinated for very long about cutting hair.. i tell myself, i need to change.. got lots need to be changed.. so i finally do one thing at a time.. 1.cut hair. 2. wash, change my 2-3 months bedsheet and blanket 3. pack my notes (both sems, my room is messy dao~~) 4.pack my room(big project) 5. sermons to be transferred from writtens words to laptop.

in the meanwhile, have to fight with temptation, and most importantly, get back to God, to have a will and heart that wants to seek God. for i realised and realised, that i'm really nothing, without God, i'm unable to live like a human. For a full and abundant life come from Him and only He can fill ourempty hearts. to love the unlovable, to love the different, to know wat is love and how to love. needs to escape from the bondage of temptation and sloth, and only God can guide me, give me the power to do so. shall change myself slowly, which is better than no change, for i have been procastinating too much.. slow change, day by day. not giving up yet, for i'm going to be stubborn with this one.. hurhur. last but not least.. too sleep early!!

wed?

have not been studying..
thinking alot..
i think i really want a gf, hhaha, despo yiki..
but, no matter how desperate, i have to wait..
In His time, there is nothing happening too early or too late..
my dad had been fainting frequently lately, today, he get dizzy again, i need to pick him up from bus interchange.
it had been happening for 3 times in the past week.. really too frequent..
at least he is not hospitalised like last yr..
have been thinking, wat'l happen if he is too sick?
cannot work anymore?
why i cant study?
why 'm I always hiding from problems?
why i keep sinning?
why i try to hide from God, or rather put Him aside despite He is so important to me?
why, why, why?
i may not have all the answers to all this questions...
but i know my God still love me, always love me. The only Love that will never change.
i'm sorry my God, i'l really try to change.
i'l learn how to love U, how to love myself, how to love people, with my heart.
i do not know how to love, i'm self-centred.
when i'm weak, God, pls forgive me, pls softly pick me up with your hands.
when i'm scared, feel like running away, pls me with me, give me courage, as u walk with me..
thank you my God..

saturday

went for a run with the uncles today.. haha.. was early for once, so many time since we had ran.. i had not been running for the pass 2 months? 3? destined routr should be from upper pierce to some where near mac richie.. ran closely with uncle, quite rough terrain, muddy, full of uneven ground, uneven stones.. remind me of last time cross country competition... hahah.. great run.. but because i was focusing too much on the ground, i did not look around to remember the route.. i ran like a quater of the route, then too tired, walk.. then run, walk, run walk(mostly walk..) then slowly, my right knee pain, then left knee, then left foot blister, then right foot. the blister @ right foot is quite bad, but i continue.. then worst is headache.. finally after a long while, i hit the U-turn point. suddenly as i walk back, i wasw thinking, i walk with this pain, 2000 years ago, as Jesus walk his way to the place where he was going to be cruxified. with all the lashes wound on the back, with that heavy cross on his battered back, feeling weak, noisy..

• have he thought of giving up?
• when he fell down, will he just wanna lie down there and forget it?

He continued.

every step i take, is painful, left leg, right leg, left leg.. ii was thinking, o God, where r u at this time.. pls be with me..i cant feel God, but as i look around, the sparkling glitters from the reflection of the river water, the thin layers of fog lying lightly on the green pastures, the nice greeneries of the trees, nice blue sky, i know, my God who make all this is here. as i run back, i continue to think. how many times can we reverse time and go backwards? how many things we can ever do again? not much. therefore, really need to treasure whatever we have now.no matter is the time whereby we are students, having a family, having parent, having brother and sisters, having friends.

as i run on, i lost my way..... (-_-)" then God sent a uncle to guide and run with me, then i found that i ran really off!! then took very long to get back to upper pierce.. normally, we start @ 8, end @ 9 plus? but today i came back @ 10... hai..so sorry to my uncles who are waiting for me.. din get to eat the legendary wan ton mee cos the boss is renovating the shop.. sobs.. then went to Mac with the uncles.. haha.. but was late for my music lesson.. hai..

then went home quickly wash clothes, wash the muddy shoes, bath, and go church study.. then came home and rest.. tired dao~~ organic read 2more chap, lsm still stuck at that chap.. hai.. but better than nothing.. haha.. 一日难过一日过。should not worry and continue to have faith and peace..! zzz..

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