the funeral back in hk was a blessed one as everything is quite smooth~~
the weather, the procedures, all are well timed. really thank God for it.
my grandfather passed away in peace, while he was having his meal, just left, no pain.
after witnessing several funerals, i prayed to God to hope that mine is a painless one.
haha.
his life was tough, came to a remote island in hk from China due to war, had language barrier as he is a teochew(hk's main language is cantonese)
he farmed, and fetch his family over(wife and 6 kids)
it was tough, they were poor.
in this circumstance, he turned to Buddha.
he told buddha that if he can make his life better, he will be a veg in his life.
so he start eating veg, but life did not turn better.
even in times whereby the family had no money to eat, he still take money to offer to buddha.
for this, he often quarrel with grandma.
my grandma is a very traditional woman, so she follow my grandfather's religion, w/o really believing.
she will quietly keep money as grandpa use money this way.
she felt that having money with her will give her peace.
five yrs ago, my grandpa had an illness and could not really walk.
he call out to buddha and ask buddha to save him, but nothing changed.
he start questioning his belief, "where are u when i need u? i had been worshipping u all this years!".
brothers and sisters from church start visiting him,praying for him caring for grandma.
he slowly get to know Jesus, reading the bible, and finally decided to accept Christ and was baptized in 06. this is something we could not imagine as he was a devoted buddhist that had been a vegetarian for more than 40 years. the amazing work of God and the love and care from his daughter, brother and sisters from church.
as my grandpa often need to go to hospital, the hospital fees need to be paid.
his sons and daughters try to
to be continued...

i'm sorry.

the damage had been inflicted.
i hope by using words, i can cushion the damage a bit.
nevertheless, what was done wrong by me had occurred.
i can only be sorry.

07/12/08

david and my grandfather returned to the Lord on the same day.

david, i always called him "King David".
he is the brother that taught me how to do logistic stuff such as where to look for the mike stand, the sound system,how to set up stuffs.

results

F
D+
C
C+
B-

pissed!

hit my wisdom tooth with the edge of the taxi door till bleed,
cant finish my cm2132 paper, which suppose to be the only module i can score, cos i was too excited about the module. i'm really powerful. worthless piece of shit.

i declare war on the worthless piece of shit name lau yi ki!
i declare war.
war ah!!!

"knee jab" "elbow strike" "jump kick"

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how great is our God??

slept at 5am, wake up at 6.. dozed off, wake up at 7, dozed off, wake up at 730!! die. went to bath.. then rush out of home, din gel hair.. went down, thank God there is a cab!! wave it, got in, and the uncle drive fast!! i reach church at 810.. quickly wear the robe, then rush out to practice.. but since i lost my scores the other time so i have to rush to print after the practice.. rush down, had a prayer before going in to the sanctuary. then as i was putting the score in the the file, i found my notes.. and i was very amused.. hahaha.. cos i had been looking for it, over the 2 weeks, and i suddenly appeared, after i print a new one.. was in a really good mood when the service started. hee.. then the singspiration was really good too, for i really feel like i was praising God, not just singing the song. it had been long since this really happen. for either i was distracted, or i was too focus on my singing techniques, or cos the song was too nice.. i was in a very ji an mood, and it lasted for quite a while.. i cant really change my mood so when i was singing with the choir, i cant really sing out the song's intended mood as the song was supposed to be slightly happy, lighthearted..i was trying to smile but my mood just cant change that fast.. but i hope god understands.

the sermon is good too!

to be used by God, is grace

to be used by God for a life time, even more is grace

continue in part 2.. tired

stomach problem..

stomach flu? dunno leh.. just that my stomach is feeling real bad.. diahorrea a few times since last sat.. today oso feel bad... but.. sit on the toilet bowl very long oso nothing happen.. haha..(ku xiao..)