but, God is good. i thank God for friends and some colleague to brighten up my day, and not giving chances to drink milk tea for i should not. thank you God.

the fly that cant be chased away.

Today my colleague tell another colleague that someone is "a TEMP ma, a fly that can't be chased away." and i just happened to walk past.... well, i'm quite sure she is talking about me, after i arrived very late to work today, and being late for almost everyday, sometimes absent due to my stomach pain. i know its my fault. but listening to it still makes me sad. hai, reap, wat u sow.

失而复得

Today is my day! whaha~~ thank God, He is good =)) tmr is convo, but i'm feeling super hot and feverish.. bad.. today i almost lose the NUS bottle, my heart sank, ran down to cafeteria to retrieve it. when it is in my hand again, i really have the feeling of 失而复得. and i think i have a better glimpse of what Jesus means in 浪子的故事. =))

Enough

i had lost control of my life for so long and today is the last straw. indulgence in desire just make my life more and more miserable and painful and difficult. should change right now. thank God for giving me a good boss and superior that are willing to give me chances. i cant fight this battle alone. My God, u got to help me.

The journey - day 4

MOE actually gave me a position after my firm stand on Sec sch students and chemistry..

when the initial position offered is Pri sch Chi teacher.. not sure what is the position yet, in a few days letter will come and we shd see~ hmm.. am i really called to be a teacher? this is quite exciting..

"Dear Lau, Yi Ki

We're pleased to make you a provisional offer of a teaching position, subject to you meeting the prevailing conditions for appointment. We will be sending the Letter of Offer via post in due course"

the past few days i had been behaving in a little abnormal manner.. but thank God for ytd's NSLC. God spoke through Dr Daniel's mouth to remind me, to think deep, to read deep into His Word. suddenly my want to read the scripture is ignited. hope that i'l live out the this fire in my life, and not just let it die. our God that is relational, help me to change this "hard" me to a tool, a channel that will have your love flowing thru =)

this is the day that the Lord has made =))

non-stop lab from 1030 to 530, left lab only to drink water and go lib read abt the lab.

made so many mistakes, with instruments not working.

was feeling really tired, dishearten, but i pray, pleaded to God, and amazingly he gave me peace =))

so nice lor, even let me see a dog made from the sunshine light and the fluffy clouds =)

thank God =)

more, more..

mom was crying as she told me about her disappointment in my inability to graduate last year.

very sad about how i live my life, about how i was not stupid but have such bad grades, the bad habit of being late and inability to get up. she is also upset for not telling her what i'm being counselled for. i really dont know how to tell her what i'm being counselled for. i want to let her know after i'm well. but the day seems so distant..

self-centred, not looking into the future. me.

responsibility and the hope in me.

a lot of times i really dont want to grow up, but apparently, i think this time is coming really close to take up the responsibilities in my life seriously.

move on, grow up be strong, in the Lord.

all together

i am going to lose my job.

grandma is diagnosed with cancer.

preentation is coming.

lab report is so difficult to do.

all these are crippling me from doing wat i need to.

my Lord, pls let my eyes and heart be with you even more in this situation.

pls dont let me sink anymore, to stand up, accept the fact, knowing u have the best plan, and move on.

忘记背后，努力面前，向着标杆直奔！

淋

被雨淋了半个小时多，有一点想被淋醒的感觉。。

已经过了一半的时间，该好好做人，完成本分了。

我是一名学生。

痛

难过，但又哭不出来。

情感上得不到释放，我主啊，帮我。pls？